Wow, it's been over a month!

I can't believe it has been over a month since my last post. Where has the time gone? And what have I been doing?  Well, look at my dog Jacs in the picture to the right and I hate to say it but I have resembled that look (minus the hair of course : )

Still have fuzz for hair. Hubby calls me fuzzy. I don't mind but I am missing having hair. I usually wear a hat when I go out. Might go rogue and go out to eat without one. Feel like I need to be bold. 

The other day I sent my hubby a pic of me and the pup and almost gagged at the sight of me. Yuch I look sick.
Current chemo makes me pale. 

But then I thought about it. I have had six courses of poison pumped into me. My red blood cells take a beating each time and that tends to wear a person out. And cancer has attacked me. I finally realized I am sick.  Never thought of myself that way before.  Probably because I felt fine despite the fact that cancer had attacked me. 

A little funny in the odd way that the cure has made me feel sick. But that is often the case with our modern medicine isn't it. Much of the no pain no gain mentality.

Not complaining. I haven't had an upset stomach once and that is big for me. Just feel tired and weaker than normal.

So now that I have decided I am sick - healing takes on a new meaning. Now I can be healed of something. And I'll know it!

SO I am  believing for healing from on high.  That I will be able to walk on the treadmill and not grow faint. That my hair will grow. That my strength will be renewed 

And that I will finish my book Golden Dreams 

Have a blessed day



Jeremiah 30:17 "For I will restore health unto you, and I will heal you of your wounds, saith the Lord."

Chemo #4 Doing Well.

Had chemo #4 Monday.  Doing well although it does take some out of me.

But this is the last with the Big Red drug which is apparently a rough one. So hopefully the next 4 will be a little easier.

Big Red is hard on the red blood cells and I have lost some. Makes me tired. So I have been eating steak and that helped a little.

Can't complain about that  : )

So today I will rest and write.

Yes, am working on my book again. YAY  the Lord gave me fresh ideas so am excited for this book again.


Strength.  You really don't know to call out for the Lord's strength until you find yours is missing.

God is good. And He promises He is our strength.

Still learning how to lean on Him. But trusting that HE is good and His promises are true

Have a blessed day.

Learning to walk in Him. Abide in Him. Walking that narrow way.



Jeremiah 30:17 "For I will restore health unto you, and I will heal you of your wounds, saith the Lord."

How's it Going?

My Office!

After five days of grunting, groaning, and reorganziing
SUCCESS!

I actually have an office I like to go into and one I can actually work in.

AND I did this during my weakest days. With a lot of help from my sweet husband. Had to wait for him to move all my heavy things. but it is finally done.

Whew! Wore me out!

Yes, I am weak from the chemo drugs. They apparently have eaten up some of my red blood cells.  SO I am eating steak and spinach and almonds to boost my count.

Also am exercising. Not a lot, but something is better than nothing,

SO I am feeling good but tired going into the weekend and Monday
will have chemo #4.  The last with Big Red drug.

And then will have an evaluation to see what is going on.  Will have a mammogram on the 28th.

The major thing I need to change is to put God First back in my life.
Somehow, I have managed to slide away from that sweet spot.

HE said narrow is the way and how true.  So easy to fall off that path
and find yourself in the brambles of life wondering where God went.

Oh He is still on the abundant life trail but I am not.

SO working on getting myself back up there.
God's presence is so wonderful not sure why I let the world yank me down
but it doesn't seem to be a hard thing to allow to happen.

Thankfully, God's mercy is new every morning and He eagerly awaits my arrival.

Healing Scripture
James 5:16 - Confess [your] faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

What are you facing?

No matter what we are facing, we need to do just that - face it!

Don't run! Fear NOT!

BUT go forward.

Yep that is my exercise bike. Rode it 10 minutes yesterday
and 10 this morning. Plan to ride it at least 2 more sets of 10 minutes today.

A step at a time is how we beat what is facing us. A step forward and not back.

Don't know what to do?

Ask the Lord. He promises to give us wisdom if we but ask.

Don't believe me - look it up. Go to Bible Gateway and search for wisdom.

Time to flex those feeble muscles and begin to make them grow.

Spiritual as well as physical muscles need to be used to make them stronger. USE THEM.

OK, just a little prod to step forward.  Remember one step at a time will get you there. Take a step now. Determine one thing you need to do and do it. ONE THING



Excited for all of you!

Let's go

Chemo #3

Just a quick update

Yep, yesterday had Chemo #3.  Went well and I feel great!
Finally got over the flu bug and must a got my perk back. So I feel really good.

The invading tumor is shrinking. [actually it started shrinking even before I started any chemo]  I can hear the cancer shrieking.  LOL

Big Red sent it's shock and awe bombs into the tumors and then my stealth drug hunted the stragglers and killed the bad cells.

Of course my good cells had their Holy Spirit hazmat suits on.

So I am pleased to say that I feel great.

Even managed to water the yard and clean out the fridge.

Now onto finishing that book!!

Love all you friends and encouragers.

Thanks for all the prayers.  I know they are keeping me going strong.

Jeremiah 30:17 

"For I will restore health unto you, and I will heal you of your wounds, saith the Lord."

Did you get the license to that truck?

Wow! Where have I been?

It wasn't chemo that got me. It was the flu bug Semi carrying a trailer full of congestion, coughing, and fatigue.

After more than 2 weeks, I am finally feeling good. Wow what a nasty bug.  So weak I couldn't even write.  THAT IS BAD!

But I am back!!!

Feeling good today and gathering strength.

Good news - I have lost more weight where I am no longer overweight.  Not quite to the 135 they say I am supposed to weigh but under 150 and I haven't seen that in 20 years.

Now I need to exercise. Yikes I am all flab.  Need some muscles.

Chemo #3 should happen Monday.   Had to skip one because of the bug.

One thing that I am really not happy with, is this bug derailed me spiritually too. I did nothing and God wasn't even on the horizon.  I thank the Lord that He didn't forget me. But I learned a lesson, no matter what keep God first.

Also - sad news. While I was languishing with the flu bug, my sweet Father in law went to be with the Lord. He is definitely happier now. I did get to say good bye to him. Bittersweet times. I do miss him, but I am happy to have my house back.

At times it was like  grand central station with all his caregivers.

So, with my goal to heal and get healthier, I am now taking over my house again.

First thing - change the room my FIL stayed in.  It is now my play room - or will be.
Tearing up the carpet - paint the walls a pretty aqua color - tile the floor.  Can't wait to get started.

Remember God is always good!

Lamentations 3:22-25

²² It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. ²³ They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

Chemo session #2

My little oasis outside on the front porch.

Had my 2nd chemo 'smart bomb' session yesterday.  No problems. My blood counts were good and I am doing well.  Tumor was smaller.  yay! DIE CANCER DIE.

I get the Big Red drug I call that my shock and awe going to blast the cancer to bits. Then I get a colorless T drug that is my stealth.  Any unsuspecting cancer cells not obliterated by Big Red are killed by the stealth drug.

And my good cells have their hazmat suits on and shields up. SO All is well.

Monday - felt good, ate well, and slept.  Sleepy day and night until midnight. Then got up and did laundry. Went back to sleep at 3:30  AM

Tuesday - Feel great.  Asthma a little yuch and chest hurts but not bad. Feel great and am sitting outside getting ready to work on finishing Golden Dreams.

Wednesday - feel good, a little weak. But determined to get my book finished.

Thursday - feel good, went to a nutrition class - eat veggies and fruit. Tired at night but good.

Friday - feel good but fatigue hits today.  good day though,

Thanks for all the prayers. I know they are lifting me up.

Praise the Lord.

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Mark 11:24 "Therefore I say to you whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them."