Yesterday, I had an MRI of my breasts at 6:30 AM - morning. Early.
That was an experience. Not bad at all, just weird. Lay face down on a massage like table with holes for your breasts to go into. Noisy so they give you earplugs and headset so you can listen to music instead of the jackhammer whirring snapping noises.
And there is the cold rush of the dye going into your veins. But it wasn't a bad experience.
Then to go home, wait for a while, take a shower with antibiotic soap and off to Baylor for the PORT.
Wish it was the ocean kind but it was the in your skin kind of thing. Very weird to have something under your skin and a wire in your neck. At least that is what it feels like. Doesn't hurt but feels strange.
But it is better than getting that 'little stick' in your hand or arm to put an IV in. Only took 15 or twenty minutes to get it in, but hours of waiting around before and an hour after. Anyone facing the fact that you are getting one - don't sweat it. Not a big deal.
So what is next?
I go to a chemo class to learn about the drugs they are going to put in me and what to expect.
Then Friday - I get my first treatment. Ought to be interesting.
No Fear. The Lord has me and is with me.
And that brings me to one of the good things that God is working out in all this. LOVE. Receiving love that is. In the Beatitudes Jesus starts off with Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
If you don't know you are in need, you're going to miss out. Face it, when cancer attacks, you need healing, help and to know that your friends and family love you. But if you don't reach out and open your arms to receive it - you miss out. And if you can't receive - you can't give out either.
Faith is not saying - "I don't have a problem." when you and everyone around you can see that you do. Faith is going on, speaking the Word and telling that problem to go in the Name of Jesus. Walking out your faith and healing and life trusting the Lord is with you and will guide you.
I may not see the next step in front of me, but I am sure that the Lord is with me, walking along the journey with me, believing that the healing is real and will come. I will live and not die. That I know.
And I am learning to receive the love from my friends. Be thankful for their prayers - and I am grateful for each and every prayer. We are not put in this life to walk it out alone. God gives us family and friends because we need them. And they need us. Together we learn to trust the Lord and are blessed by blessing each other.
On my next post I'll show you a special love gift of healing from my God connected friend, Kathy. I am so excited to see what God is up to in all this.
**Verse of the day
10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my